Unmasking Autism

When I first set out to expand on a personal level, I had no real clue where my path was going to take me along this unpredictable journey we like to label as "healing". Originally, the plan was to break away from my abusive, toxic ex-husband, shed the weight that I had piled on like a pig in a field, and rid myself of the obvious toxins I felt were hindering my forward movement. As an empathic woman of color, I had endured all the things within my thirty-seven years of living that were enough to accumulate multiple autobiographies, and a lifetime movie that would be box office worthy to say the least. When I started this business, my goal was to simply continue the work I had been doing for sixteen years, but little did I know expansion would be something thrown in my direction after undergoing deep healing, shadow integration, the night of the soul, and my ability to gain the courage to unmask and share my neurodivergent status with my community.

My entire life, I had been set apart in all the ways, and I had endured a lot due to environmental stimuli I didn't always understand and never could control. I was the gifted child who preferred solitude, spending my time diving into art through creatively expressing myself through fashion, writing, music, and the exploration of scientific discovery, which was always my preferred hobby. In 2024, after having a traumatic experience where I was drugged and violated, I began to see things differently while working through my traumas, and I decided masking was no longer something I wanted to do after committing myself to healing from all of the traumas I had endured in life. After going through my dark night of the soul experience due to the traumatic event, I was able to share my truth with my community, and of course, the truth of my autistic status came as a shock to many. I got many ignorant responses, such as "you can't be autistic, you're too smart"! Or my favorite, which was "you don't have autism, we would have noticed". The irony is that had anyone truly been paying attention, they would have known.

Before I continue, for the sake of irony, I'd like to point out the textbook indicators I exhibited that told the story in real time, which many responded to with a level of illiterate behavior that is often common among both undiagnosed and diagnosed individuals on the spectrum. First, there was my dire need to be alone, often preferring to be a lone wolf and never able to engage with more than one friend for an extended period. I was abnormally intelligent, often utilizing the expression of complex vocabulary words I had never been taught or had modeled in my environment. Then there was the discomfort I expressed when being forced to wear certain clothing due to the texture of the fabric that often made me itch, feel pain, or just overall discomfort due to my hypersensitivity. I struggled with loud noises, sensitivity to lighting, and this led me to often prefer to be in quiet, dark spaces because those were the kinds of environments I preferred. I often displayed OCD and stemming behaviors such as tapping excessively, and skin picking in one designated area, and I was a fast learner. I could decide I wanted to do a complex task I had never been taught and execute it on the first try after observing it being done and putting the steps together in chronological order in my brain before executing. I did this at a young age with things like learning how to ride a bike with no training wheels, roller blading, sewing, writing music, and poetry. I could execute complex task but didn't learn how to tie my shoes till much later which I later learned was common for autistic girls and I later saw this pattern repeated I my daughter. As I got older I started to recognize the ways I was different from most of the people I encountered, I had an abnormal heightened intuition, and I could spot a pattern from a mile away leading me to predict circumstances most would find to be unpredictable! By the time I reached middle school I started speculating my spectrum status and by the time I reached high school I was certain I had Asperger’s and by the time I was in my late thirties I confirmed that I was both autistic and ADHD leading me down a path of advocacy, self exploration, teaching, and creative expression I didn’t see coming! After going through a deep spiritual healing process, accepting my past traumas, healing from my poor experiences, and embracing my natural spiritual gifts as a gifted personal with Clair abilities ( psychic gifts) I started dedicating new creative purpose projects to help others unmask autism, build awareness for spectrum disorders, teach others about spiritual gifts, and offer a healing platform to help others through spiritual awakenings. Unmasking my autism led me down a path of self love, creative expression, and a calling to assist others like me in learning what it means to be a spectrum person, how to navigate life as an empath, and what deep healing does for empathic people who are being called to step into their higher self! We live in a world full of mask and masked mandates and I have learned the true benefits of healing and stepping into the fullness of the true self in real time!